I wonder what it would feel like to be swallowed whole by something so massive its entire throat and body can contain the fullness of my entire being
I wonder what it would feel like as I moved from the wetness of its tongue through the narrowness of the throat and into the darkness of its stomach
maybe fast
then…
slow
how would I move through all these parts
In what way would I be digested?
slowly dissolving, breaking down as I become one with this thing that swallowed me whole
sustaining the life of the very thing that killed me
this thing?
No.
this…
Monster.
decider of my existence
this…
Monster.
concluding that I was disposable
Dissolving.
fast
then
slow
Dissolving.
flesh
bones
skin
blood
Humanity.
humanness
taken.
captured
eaten alive by this thing
this…
Monster.
taking
this…
Monster.
breaking
this…
Monster.
grasping
this…
Monster.
gripping
seizing
all that I am.
all that I could have been.
swallowed.
legs First.
ensuring I can’t see what is to become of me until…
it is too late
I am here
alive
living
breathing
being
I am here
suffocating
breaking
aching
fading
darkness
Death.
much more
than flesh and bones
much more
than skin and blood
Death.
much
Death.
more.
Death.
the gentle touch of a light wind
Death.
the wetness of the eyes as tears begin their escape
Death.
the forming of the face as a smile enters the atmosphere
Death.
the rise and fall of the
belly
Breath!
death…
breath…
Death!
Breath!
death…
breath…
Death!
Breath!
death…
breath…
Death!
Death!
breath…
death…
Breath!
Death!
breath…
death…
Breath!
Death!
breath…
death…
Breath!
AH!
I can’t breathe!
What is this?!
this…
Monster!
taking
breaking
suffocating…
Me!
Me?
The monster is me?
What.
But…
I don’t understand.
How could the monster be me?
-Kai Alexzander Love
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May we all be brave enough to see in what ways are we our own monster…
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