What is this monster?

I wonder what it would feel like to be swallowed whole by something so massive its entire throat and body can contain the fullness of my entire being

I wonder what it would feel like as I moved from the wetness of its tongue through the narrowness of the throat and into the darkness of its stomach

maybe fast

then…

slow

how would I move through all these parts

In what way would I be digested?

slowly dissolving, breaking down as I become one with this thing that swallowed me whole

sustaining the life of the very thing that killed me

this thing?

No.

this…

Monster.

decider of my existence

this…

Monster.

concluding that I was disposable

Dissolving.

fast

then

slow

Dissolving.

flesh

bones

skin

blood

Humanity.

humanness

taken.

captured

eaten alive by this thing

this…

Monster.

taking

this…

Monster.

breaking

this…

Monster.

grasping

this…

Monster.

gripping

seizing

all that I am.

all that I could have been.

swallowed.

legs First.

ensuring I can’t see what is to become of me until…

it is too late

I am here

alive

living

breathing

being

I am here

suffocating

breaking

aching

fading

darkness

Death.

much more

than flesh and bones

much more

than skin and blood

Death.

much

Death.

more.

Death.

the gentle touch of a light wind

Death.

the wetness of the eyes as tears begin their escape

Death.

the forming of the face as a smile enters the atmosphere

Death.

the rise and fall of the

belly

Breath!

death…

breath…

Death!

Breath!

death…

breath…

Death!

Breath!

death…

breath…

Death!

Death!

breath…

death…

Breath!

Death!

breath…

death…

Breath!

Death!

breath…

death…

Breath!

AH!

I can’t breathe!

What is this?!

this…

Monster!

taking

breaking

suffocating…

Me!

Me?

The monster is me?

What.

But…

I don’t understand.

How could the monster be me?

 

-Kai Alexzander Love

Follow me on Medium where I will be publishing my pieces.

http://www.medium.com/@callmekailove

#loveandbeloved

May we all be brave enough to see in what ways are we our own monster…

Photo credit: Cristian Newman for sharing their work on Unsplash.

 

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